I haven’t written a tumblr post in awhile, so here’s the most exciting update in my life: my weight.
I was always skinny growing up. I could (and did) eat whatever I wanted to, and never gained weight. This all changed my sophomore year in college. I have no idea what happened, but I gained about 50 pounds during the next 3 years. I was always self conscious about it, but nobody ever really pointed it out to me so I didn’t really let it bother me too much. I had a boyfriend, I was happy, blah blah blah.
Well it turns out, that relationship ended and I was really depressed about it. I’m hesitant to give it any more merit other than that because a) this was a year and a half ago, b) he has friends who don’t like me and follow me on this tumblr, and c) it’s the internet and this is public. I ended up gaining even MORE weight. I started wearing only sweats and tee shirts and just really tried to mask the fact that I was getting bigger and bigger. Still, nobody pointed it out to me really. I don’t know if that’s because nobody wanted to hurt my feelings or what.
One day it hit me: I got big. I’m not a tall girl (about 5’7”) and so it didn’t balance out. My stomach was HUGE. I legitimately look pregnant in photos. I noticed it and after letting my weight yo-yo for a few months, I finally did something about it.
My weight loss total so far is 30 pounds. I still have about 50 pounds left to lose before I hit my final goal, but I am not ashamed to say that I think I look pretty freaking good for right now. I still have a stomach pooch, but I’m not ashamed of it. I’m proud because it shows progress to me. When I lose 10 more pounds I’m going to get my belly button pierced. I’m happy, I have self confidence, and things are going well. Let’s cross our fingers for me that I can continue on this path.
Here are some pictures. I think it’s pretty clear which ones are the “before” ones, and the mirror shots are ones I just took, so it’s where I’m at now. It takes a lot of courage to post these, but I’m enjoying the journey and wanted to share it.
